Friday, July 30, 2010

love during wartime

Day 5: Habit(s) you wish you didn’t have and why.

1. Salivating when i sleep HAHA SERIOUS. why? DUDEEEE
2. Saying weird stuffs at weird timings and have to end up laughing myself or saying " errr okay nvm" really softly -_- it doesn't feel good okay HAHA
3. Doing embarrassing stuffs in public, i will just tarnish myself when people catch me in action haha
4. Being lazy!!
5. Laughing at people in their face, heehee oooopssssss i seriously can't control it...


Day 4: iTunes on shuffle, list first 10 songs that play. Seriously, don't even cheat. Doesn't matter if it's this really damn old song. :D

1. And then you - Greg Laswell
2. Russian Roulette - Rihanna
3. Whatever it takes - Lifehouse
4. River flows in you - Yiruma
5. Breakaway - CHC
6. Poker face - Lady Gaga
7.You saw me - Hillsong
8. Sober - P!nk
9. Goodbye - Secondhand Serenade
10. Meet me halfway - BEP


how my thoughts spin me round

Day 3: 10 things you wish were true

1. i wish i was slimmer/pretier whatever
2. i'll be able to go to paris/uk for U
3. am a famous fashion designer
4. i know french
5. i have a home
6. i'm not stuck in a stupid school
7. i won't be tied down by anything
8. i'm really good at drawing
9. people would stop giving me other options and disregarding what i actually want and am going to do even when they know it
10. they'll remember that i'm only 16. and not 18 or 20 or whatever so that i'm the one making all the decisions and shit.

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

something far

Day 2: A letter to someone who has hurt you recently. Sorry if this challenge is too depressing. Something more serious today. Tomorrow will be more random and fun, I promise. :)

Dear friend,
Thanks for haunting me for awhile a while back. I really appreciate the ability of your very presence to turn bright days into pitch darkness , turn green leaves into crispy brown ones, turn dry eyes into wet ones. You made me feel normal even when i had messed up hair, messed up clothes, messed up mind. I couldn't care less. The anticipation of your arrival didn't help, either. It was supposed to i guess, to get myself prepared. to fight. you. You just had to come every sunday morning, monday night, tuesday afternoon and it goes on.. Even though your coming was apparent, it didn't give me enough time to adjust myself not to be affected by you. You became part of my life. how taunting. everyday was doomsday. everyone was doomspeople. everything was doomstale. people had issues with me i had issues with them the world had issues but yet not a single tissue was offered. those were the days when you were with me. global breakdown.

but thanks to you i have finally learnt to let go and let God. and this became a good change for me in my life. i'm more appreciative now and value the little joys that life brings instead of setting up high expectations that can't really be met. i'm just happy with anything that i can get, even if it's just a peach tart i'll be beyond happy. i've learnt to love more, be less cynical and more accepting, me thinks. he. he. and i've learnt to treasure what i have instead of always hoping for more! :>

so, thankyou for hurting me so that i can be healed.

Monday, July 26, 2010

five o'clock heroes

alright since phoebe wants me to do this, hahaha. 30 days challenge. Virtual endurance camp 101!

Day 1: The most recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself.
 taken awhile back but edited it RECENTLY so i guess it counts right? heeh

1. The height indicator depicts me as 168cm but i am actually 170cm in real life.
2. I have a secret obsession over pretty girls, tendencies. Not in a i wish to be a guy so that i can date her way but more of she's soooooooooooooo prettyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy, stabs kinda way hehe.
3. I have the weirdest theories about normal things and tend to twist them till i lose track of where i am - results in constant vigorous mind battles. no kidding. i literally argue with myself, over the smallest things, in my mind, if it's not bad enough. PURE MENTAL. but then again, they say that the best people are often crazy right? just really needed to redeem myself.
4. I dont hate hate *instant death* but the things that he does really amuse me, in a bad way.
5. I tend to take things literal. like ROFLMAO - i'll really imagine people rolling on the floor laughing their ass off. this makes the world a better place, me thinks. because even the thought of it makes me laugh
6. which brings me to the next point. i always laugh at things/moments that i think of, BAD BAD BAD. esp in public. embarrassment 101.
7. Sometimes i think that i dress better than most guys do, when i'm wearing something that's quite unisexual. sometimes.
8. When it comes to looking at guys, i'll first notice their shoes. then the bag. then the hair. then the face. then the body. I don't know, i just have this perception that if their shoes + bags are not worth looking at then the other parts shouldn't be too impressive either. so no point wasting my time. i move fast.
9. I only like certain indie bands. discriminating?
10. I stalk.
11. I like overseas brands like shopnastygal, stolen girlfriends club, need supply & co, opening ceremony, bona drag etc etc etc but i'm still a zara and topshop hardcore fan.
12. I like going on other people's facebook and write lovely stuffs of me pretending that i'm the account user. show me some TLC!
13. I've a phobia of apple syrup now after that night in phoebe's room. and wet grounds, i tend to walk real slow for the fear of slipping and falling on the ground. hard. on. my. ass.
14. I like poems that rhymes even if they don't make sense. I'll just make my own sense out of it! Manipulation comes into the picture now and then i suppose.
15. There's nothing more i want other than you. But if i can't have you i'd rather have nothing at all. I don't play games, so don't even talk about the heart.

GOSH IT'S FINALLY OVER. 29 more days!

Friday, July 23, 2010

street lights waiting

Pamela Love is really a good jeweller-er, a nominee of 2010 CFDA/ Vogue Fashion Fund award. Definitely someone to look out for :>

pictures via

always through the thin lens

(zara, urban outfitters)

guys who dresses well have a plus factor. doesn't necessary has to spend hours perfecting a look but a casual and clean cut look will do just good. you'll look effortless yet sleek at the same time, how rewarding

thanks phoebe for inspiring me to do a post on menswear hehe
it's fine with me when you curse and swear
when you screw your life upside down and make mistakes
but please don't turn superficial.

never ever let me in

Freja Beha Erichsen and Dan Kling for Interview August '10

Monday, July 19, 2010

i don't even know your name
yet you put a stop to my steps
looking out of my window pane
i see you lying flat.
oh how wonderful a sight
so beautiful that hansel and damsel couldn't fight
transparency yields
the hurt and scars heal
helplessness strikes
and you took flight

night fall

they've reached an equilibrium
their lives intertwined
like a knotty problem
the radical of their love refined
at that instant
of realization

is it possible
to pull each others hair
to be one's grizzly bear
for a day there
and then have a disappearance so subtle

the question at hand
the stake in hearts
the lives of two
does gravity hold so?

it's not yours to hold

she snapped.
falling back to the same pattern,
who's to blame?

he walked away,
there won't be a next time
to apologise

they stood,
watched them burn.
and watched.

love the way you lie

thanks mama and dada ♥
 ♥phoebe, we're tied down by our blood relations so you can't run away from me even when i'm mad hysteric hee
 ♥kezia, bbff!
♥prettykoh and dumbledorejoshua
♥yunnie, i tried and did the first eye within 3 mins wahaha!
♥ohoh and jiumu, really sweet of you guys
♥taylin jeano kung, awesome agyness deyn + uniqlo shirtttt
♥w341, awesome cellgroup!
♥krist, for the sweetest birthday celeb. ever. best fish friends indeed!

all of you are take up at least one of them!
picture via

it's the heart that matters and i'm just grateful for what i have :)

(maxi- topshop, bracelet - tiffany & co, bag - zara)

hahaha this was so long ago! taken @ timbre - dinner with phoebe, caleb, caleb's friend, lilian, sarah, sly. pretty chill and nice evening.

i fight for what i can't,
suffocate and burn.
but what if i like it,
your stomach would churn.

Sunday, July 18, 2010

belive me i've been there

i will conquer all of you braidies. grow hair grow.


pictures via

i'd swim the ocean for you

4 laxatives (with the absence of kung taylin huiyuxian yiling yili) to Pulau Semakau!
My fav. place in S'pore still, ♥. i'll be up there one day heehee
SENTOSA COVE, expensive but really naiseeeeeeeeee
strangely i like this shot pretty much
Diana F+, "don't think, just shoot"
Jeanofish, YOG Journalist. COOL OR WHAT
attempt to look like taylin hehe
funny faces
strangely i like this shot as well
i want to sail a ship one day, dreams of a teenage girl.
my favourite shot of the day. wonder how it feels like to be living in the sea-hut. travelling by boat. making friends with the fishes. wearing straw hats and white singlets. humming to the tune of 60's ballads. having a old picture of a pretty lady taken in the 50's in a small frame by the bedside. simple joys? utopia for some, dystopia for others, it all depends on the lens you're looking through at life
oh how you consume me,
bit by bit as i approach.
like a thick velvet, beneath filled with the unknown-s.
my mind flew into a rage, i lunged forward.
and fear tore me apart.